she says " You dont want to be married to me" he says " How do you know"

sometimes we think that we are not worthy enough of being in a relationship. we're not ready. we're not capable.

 the other person is amazing but so amazing that they could do without our junk, our baggage, our emotional problems ..we 're saving them by being away from them or not getting into something..

but the puzzle is that they seem ready for it.
they seem to know us and all our shit but still seem to love us. kinda like Derek's love for Meredith in Grey's Anatomy.  She was a mess but he loved her.  but does that love last?

romance

I was watching Laws of Attraction again today.
everytime i watch a romantic movie my heart ponders and wonders.

will i find a person i can be vulnerable with?  a person who i can share my insecurities with? a person who will listen and understand and know my flaws but not use them against me?
a person who will be kind? a person who will not get lost in emotions but will know and be secure that he loves me? a person who is patient?

is that type of person just in my head; a fictional character found in books and in movies; a creation of our imagination?
maybe lovers and partners are not patient and kind and understanding to that extent that they do not focus on weakness and insecurities of their partners...

maybe it really is just fiction.

men leave their women all the time because of their insecurities and weaknesses......

2nd of December 2012- over a 100 views of my blog  :) :)

i know about God but do i know God??

one kiss

a crush

is it a crush or love? how do you know? i cant stop thinking about him.

i see his face in quite moments. ( i'm even spelling wrong)

what if i when i was talking to him i suddenly moved in close and kissed him?

Does one kiss imply love? or am i just falling into the temptation of lust.

What would it feel like with my lips pressed to his? are we connected through the act?  his lips on my lips. my lips on his lips.  his hands around me.

i think all i want is the kiss. the kiss could determine the future.

could one kiss answer all my questions?

would one kiss let me know if i like who he is?
     would one kiss let me know if i'm ready for a relationship?
would one kiss let me know if we can be together forever?
     would one kiss reveal my true and unconfused feelings for him?
would one kiss dispel all my worries, questions and anxieties about him?
                                     
would one kiss answer all my questions?
or would it just be a kiss.

change

i'm discovering so much about myself recently.
things i like and things i dont like about myself.

so much of what i thought was good for myself actually leads to my destruction. to my downfall. to my plummeting down.

why hurt myself? why jeopordise my future?


there are things i should change about myself.

but by myself i am powerless to change. i cant do it by myself. and thankfully I dont have to change all by myself.

Change leads to growth and development.

                  John 3:30

"He must increase, but I must decrease."

Owl City - Shooting Star

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i need to find something to blog about!!!!!!!

My thoughts at the moment just revolve around justice.......

how can we eliminate injustice in society? I dont think we can.....

read this on facebook

"two best secrets to keep a relationship strong-

1)whenever you are wrong always admit it

2) whenever you are right just keep quiet"

comments anyone?

No More

i talk and people listen but yet they dont hear...

{ its so funny when ur telling someone how bad you feel about something and then they go "oh, great!" }

so maybe its just time to stop talking, stop revealing my feelings, stop saying what I think, stop saying what I feel and say nothing...

just be.